NOTHING BUT SATISFIED.:)

Finally,i finished my As exam which lasted for almost 1 and a half month......
During the first week of my exam.i almost had nightmares every night.
i dreamed that i was kidnapped by a few gangsters ,
i dreamed that i jumped from a tall building........etc

anyway,i am glad that i finished my exam already......
i know i aint a brilliant student
so i also didnt expect myself can get any good result
i will be very satisfied if i get an average result.:)

‘情绪’与’一定能‘

人当然有自己的情绪，会发脾气，会哭，会笑，会痛。。
一个没情绪的人，只能说得上他的生活里是空白的，是没颜色的


其实，有谁不想快快乐乐的过自己的每一天呢？
有时候，不想面对的压力，和不幸的事情还是会出现在我们的生活里

当这些事情出现时，要做的不是逃避，而是面对（这种客套话，谁都会讲啦，傻的）
这是真的，面对确实是件很大的功课

当有压力时，
1 要学会控制自己的压力，别让压力控制你。让压力成为你的推动力，而不是摧毁你的压力。
（谁都会讲啦）
我比较喜欢深呼吸，让自己的心先定下拉，放空
再continue自己的东西


当不开心时，
2 千万别把‘我很不快乐，我很大压力’写在脸上，因为那样会影响别人的。
本来你身边的朋友的心情是喜悦的，但看到你的‘臭酸脸’，什么mood都没有了啦~
（死三八，弄到我也emo卖了）
千万别让别人有机会在你背后说这些话噢
所以，人还是得戴上一副面具好点，等到在家时，要发泄时，痛快地把面具脱下，大喊大叫的喊一番（别被邻居投诉就好）


当开心时，
3 ‘好事要传千里’嘛~
怎样传？到村口大叫？
LOL
IN一点please
当然是在面子书上传啦！把你的快乐散播出去

‘今天很开心，因为我吃了我要吃的猪扒饭，好感动”
有没有试过看到类似的status而感到快乐点呢？
（不要把babi的pic post上去就好，不然给babi的同乡anti就不好了）


当寂寞时，
4 寂寞无处不在haiz
’寂寞寂寞就好‘
歌都有得唱了

寂寞时，最好的朋友当然是电视机和电脑啦~
别让自己不做任何东西，因为你不做东西，但是你的头脑还run



当绝望时，
5 只要抱着“一定能’的态度去做事的话，
就不会有绝望了
绝望没人救到你的，因为你先自我放弃自己了
要+ve一点，做事情才会快乐的





以上纯粹本人意见与经历

What's 'pain'.......?

Do u believe that
'PAINFUL'
this single word,
always come out from our mouths......

for an example,
you will scream that
'OMG,it's so f*ckin painful'
whenever you are stung by a hornet,fall down from the stair or ........bla bla..........

BUT

What's the most heart-breaking thing that u might experience in this world?

In this world,
full of people,
there are small part of people are experiencing the most heart-breaking and the most painful thing that i mentioned........

we will never able to imagine how they feel if we don't put ourselves in their situations.......
it's like shattering the heart into pieces and pieces........


if someone hu we love
is suffering from certain disease like cancer,
we shud encourage them to fight with the disease .........
the one hu we love might be our parents,friends,siblings or lover.........


it's so harsh and 'painful' to see them suffering from the disease.....
to cancer patients,
they have to undergo certain treatment which will cause some side effect
the treatment might cause them have insomnia,vomit,tired and bla bla

when we look at their pale faces,
vomit out everyting that they hv eaten,
trap insid the room,
cant even go out to see the blue sky,
hv to eat many tablets of medicine everyday.............

it's so 'PAINFUL' to see the one hu we care suffering from the disease
and
we cant even do something to give them some relief......

But
we have to be strong,
smile in front of them and encouraging them..........
although we are worrying abot them

this is what the small part of people experiencing everyday......



actually,
we are the blissful one if we compare to them

又‘衰’了~

haiz~
failed undang test 了咯~
其实，我根本就不想去考undang~
是老妈逼我的咯~
我真的很讨厌啦~
很闷咯~！！
我最怕闷的咯~~~~~
我想快点去实现我的第一个梦想咯~
2011年一定要实现的！！！
充满朝气和毅力要去实现我的梦想~^^
根本就没想过考车之类的事~

考undang那天，我没动书就考了咯~
给我对了39喔~
算啦~
都预料的啦~

等有mood那时，
再去考回咯~
再去动那本令人讨厌的undang书~

每次都要去到bangi~
远咯~
而且，要对着很多不认识的人~
更闷！！
我不明白咯
为什么有些人去听undang时，
要带名牌钱包，连笔也是名牌的咯~


值得开心的事，
我找回我的水晶项链了~~！！
我以为我弄不见了~~！！
rm200的咯~
原来我放在裤子里面~
可怜的链就在洗衣机里面打呀，转呀~
哈哈~

'噢另居*(orange juices)

最近爱上了喝*噢另居*（oranges juice)

haha~

自己每次都很懒惰blend果汁wor~

所以就买现成的~XD

其实也不是我买啦~

是妈妈咯~

每次冰箱没货了，就到超市买一大堆的

snack snack~~~

minute maid pulpy orange juices~

真的好好喝也~

不会太甜~

味道恰到好~

喝下去有幸福的感觉噢~kimuchi(舒服）~XD

rm5 一支而已也~

大家快快去试一试啦~
^^

It's time for me to put a STOP on it

i will never forget that horrible week..........
the most disastrous week in my life.........

19/10/2010

i just finished my spm trial exam.i was exhausted and i didnt score really well in my trial.
i'd been emo for a week because of your attitude.

i begged you to send me at least a message a day.
But you scolded me.you claimed that our relationship was stable and we didnt need to stick to each other too much.i......believed with what you said.


around 8pm,i received your message.i was really glad to receive your message.it had been a long time i didnt receive your message.
But i was disappointed when i read your message.

you: 'i want to discuss something with you.it's about our relationship.'

and you asked me to break up with you.
i immediately bursted into tears when i read your messages.
each words was like shattering my heart into pieces.
i called you and i said :'i dont think i can live without you.please .....please...dont contact me start from now.i need to forget you..'

i felt so so sad when i listened you said..'ok'........
it's a really short answer but it's really killing me..........

after i off my phone,i lied down on my bed and cried.......

suddenly,my mum knocked my door and said.....
'your grandpa is hovering between life and death in the hospital now.i am going to hospital now.do you want to follow me?'

on te way to hospital,
we received a phone call from the hospital and my grandpa........passed away.......

when we reached the hospital,
i saw my grandpa was lying on the bed.
his body was covered with a blanket.
my aunt couldn't stand the emotion and she cried.
i couldn't cry.
everyting happened in sudden and my mind went blank.


i sent a message to you and told you that my grandpa had passed away.
you just asked me to take care.
you didnt even be with me and lent me your shoulder.
you didnt even send me a single message after that night.


After 4 days,
my grandma ....passed away too..........
because of my grandparents' funeral,
i didnt sleep well for few days.
i had to help my parents to prepare my grandparents' funeral.
i was mentally and physically tired.

finally,
i decided to call you.
i cried so badly when i was talking to you.
you didnt even bother about me even though i cried so badly.


spm was around the corner.
i couldn't pay any attention on my study.

i went to school as usual.
i was forced to wear a grin to pretend i was ok.
so that ,my friends wouldnt worry about me.
actually, no one knew what had happened to me and how i felt in the bottom of my heart.
i bottled up all my feelings.

when i was having my spm exam,
i looked at my cellphone every night.i hoped that you would send me a message and
asked me to work harder.
however,
again,
my expectation turned to disappointment.


Finally,
i realized that i shouldn't continue to be like that.
i had to push myself!!!!spm should be my everything and not you.
if i still living in the past,it would make me more suffer.
it was a really disastrous week to me and i passed through it by myself.
i never knew that i could make it and i was so proud with myself.


i hated you!
i hated you for broken our promise.
i hated you for didn't lend me your shoulder when i needed you so much.
i hated you for asking me to break up with you.
i hated you for didnt care about me when my grandparents passed away.
i hated you for didnt encourage me to work harder during my exam.
i hated you for being so selfish.


But.........
for now......
i no longer hate you or love you.
to me,
you are a stranger.
a stranger that i used to love so much.
it's time for me to put a stop on it.

i really enjoy my life now.
obviously,
i do not need you in my life now.

i am back........
^^

Before and after christmas~~

24/12/2010

it's christmas eve~

i went to Gigi's fren house to celebrate the christmas~

1st,

caroling~

then,

met chui teng and her frens from the church...

i saw a small present on the floor and i didnt know whose present was it....

so i picked it up and asked other ppl hu were around me whether tis present was belong to them or not.....but they asked me to keep it....

LOL
automatically,it bcam my 2nd christmas present~i din mean to be greedy....

jz tat tey kept forcing me to keep it lor~haha

after tat,

we went to Uncle JB's house which was located at bukit jalil by benjamin's car...

it was my 1st time met uncle JB.

He and his family members're so nice~

His wife even presented me a towel as a christmas present.

i felt so warm when his wife handed me the towel and said 'merry christmas' with a broad grin~

uncle JB 's house is so huge~

it's a 3 storey bungalow......

thr's a small balcony at the 3rd floor...

at thr,

i talked wit gigi abot my future and my problems ~

christmas eve wasnt as perfect as i thought
anyway,it's still a memorable christmas eve too~^^

25/12/2010(family day)

it's christmas~^^

my family(except my father),my uncle and his family,my neighbours went to seputeh to hv a superb dinner together.....

at seputeh,thr's a famous restaurant called 'xiao xiao'

thr's whr we had our dinner......

tey ordered claypot crab fried rice,curry prawn,fried chicken..........bla bla........

our table was full with the dishes..........

25/12/2010

we went to 'bao xian bak kut teh' at puchong~

thr r branches at mid valley and pavilion too~

mayb i dun really like to eat bak kut teh~

so i din really enjoy te food~

at nite,

we went to sunway pyramid........^^

christmas tree @mid valley

2010 christmas comes to the end.....

and new year is coming~

^^