又‘衰’了~

haiz~
failed undang test 了咯~
其实，我根本就不想去考undang~
是老妈逼我的咯~
我真的很讨厌啦~
很闷咯~！！
我最怕闷的咯~~~~~
我想快点去实现我的第一个梦想咯~
2011年一定要实现的！！！
充满朝气和毅力要去实现我的梦想~^^
根本就没想过考车之类的事~

考undang那天，我没动书就考了咯~
给我对了39喔~
算啦~
都预料的啦~

等有mood那时，
再去考回咯~
再去动那本令人讨厌的undang书~

每次都要去到bangi~
远咯~
而且，要对着很多不认识的人~
更闷！！
我不明白咯
为什么有些人去听undang时，
要带名牌钱包，连笔也是名牌的咯~


值得开心的事，
我找回我的水晶项链了~~！！
我以为我弄不见了~~！！
rm200的咯~
原来我放在裤子里面~
可怜的链就在洗衣机里面打呀，转呀~
哈哈~

'噢另居*(orange juices)

最近爱上了喝*噢另居*（oranges juice)

haha~

自己每次都很懒惰blend果汁wor~

所以就买现成的~XD

其实也不是我买啦~

是妈妈咯~

每次冰箱没货了，就到超市买一大堆的

snack snack~~~

minute maid pulpy orange juices~

真的好好喝也~

不会太甜~

味道恰到好~

喝下去有幸福的感觉噢~kimuchi(舒服）~XD

rm5 一支而已也~

大家快快去试一试啦~
^^

It's time for me to put a STOP on it

i will never forget that horrible week..........
the most disastrous week in my life.........

19/10/2010

i just finished my spm trial exam.i was exhausted and i didnt score really well in my trial.
i'd been emo for a week because of your attitude.

i begged you to send me at least a message a day.
But you scolded me.you claimed that our relationship was stable and we didnt need to stick to each other too much.i......believed with what you said.


around 8pm,i received your message.i was really glad to receive your message.it had been a long time i didnt receive your message.
But i was disappointed when i read your message.

you: 'i want to discuss something with you.it's about our relationship.'

and you asked me to break up with you.
i immediately bursted into tears when i read your messages.
each words was like shattering my heart into pieces.
i called you and i said :'i dont think i can live without you.please .....please...dont contact me start from now.i need to forget you..'

i felt so so sad when i listened you said..'ok'........
it's a really short answer but it's really killing me..........

after i off my phone,i lied down on my bed and cried.......

suddenly,my mum knocked my door and said.....
'your grandpa is hovering between life and death in the hospital now.i am going to hospital now.do you want to follow me?'

on te way to hospital,
we received a phone call from the hospital and my grandpa........passed away.......

when we reached the hospital,
i saw my grandpa was lying on the bed.
his body was covered with a blanket.
my aunt couldn't stand the emotion and she cried.
i couldn't cry.
everyting happened in sudden and my mind went blank.


i sent a message to you and told you that my grandpa had passed away.
you just asked me to take care.
you didnt even be with me and lent me your shoulder.
you didnt even send me a single message after that night.


After 4 days,
my grandma ....passed away too..........
because of my grandparents' funeral,
i didnt sleep well for few days.
i had to help my parents to prepare my grandparents' funeral.
i was mentally and physically tired.

finally,
i decided to call you.
i cried so badly when i was talking to you.
you didnt even bother about me even though i cried so badly.


spm was around the corner.
i couldn't pay any attention on my study.

i went to school as usual.
i was forced to wear a grin to pretend i was ok.
so that ,my friends wouldnt worry about me.
actually, no one knew what had happened to me and how i felt in the bottom of my heart.
i bottled up all my feelings.

when i was having my spm exam,
i looked at my cellphone every night.i hoped that you would send me a message and
asked me to work harder.
however,
again,
my expectation turned to disappointment.


Finally,
i realized that i shouldn't continue to be like that.
i had to push myself!!!!spm should be my everything and not you.
if i still living in the past,it would make me more suffer.
it was a really disastrous week to me and i passed through it by myself.
i never knew that i could make it and i was so proud with myself.


i hated you!
i hated you for broken our promise.
i hated you for didn't lend me your shoulder when i needed you so much.
i hated you for asking me to break up with you.
i hated you for didnt care about me when my grandparents passed away.
i hated you for didnt encourage me to work harder during my exam.
i hated you for being so selfish.


But.........
for now......
i no longer hate you or love you.
to me,
you are a stranger.
a stranger that i used to love so much.
it's time for me to put a stop on it.

i really enjoy my life now.
obviously,
i do not need you in my life now.

i am back........
^^

Before and after christmas~~

24/12/2010

it's christmas eve~

i went to Gigi's fren house to celebrate the christmas~

1st,

caroling~

then,

met chui teng and her frens from the church...

i saw a small present on the floor and i didnt know whose present was it....

so i picked it up and asked other ppl hu were around me whether tis present was belong to them or not.....but they asked me to keep it....

LOL
automatically,it bcam my 2nd christmas present~i din mean to be greedy....

jz tat tey kept forcing me to keep it lor~haha

after tat,

we went to Uncle JB's house which was located at bukit jalil by benjamin's car...

it was my 1st time met uncle JB.

He and his family members're so nice~

His wife even presented me a towel as a christmas present.

i felt so warm when his wife handed me the towel and said 'merry christmas' with a broad grin~

uncle JB 's house is so huge~

it's a 3 storey bungalow......

thr's a small balcony at the 3rd floor...

at thr,

i talked wit gigi abot my future and my problems ~

christmas eve wasnt as perfect as i thought
anyway,it's still a memorable christmas eve too~^^

25/12/2010(family day)

it's christmas~^^

my family(except my father),my uncle and his family,my neighbours went to seputeh to hv a superb dinner together.....

at seputeh,thr's a famous restaurant called 'xiao xiao'

thr's whr we had our dinner......

tey ordered claypot crab fried rice,curry prawn,fried chicken..........bla bla........

our table was full with the dishes..........

25/12/2010

we went to 'bao xian bak kut teh' at puchong~

thr r branches at mid valley and pavilion too~

mayb i dun really like to eat bak kut teh~

so i din really enjoy te food~

at nite,

we went to sunway pyramid........^^

christmas tree @mid valley

2010 christmas comes to the end.....

and new year is coming~

^^

Yesterday

Yesterday,
i fell down,
i cried.
Today,
i fall down,
i din cry and i stand up alone.

Yesterday,
i laughed and talked with my grandpa and grandma.
today,
they pass away.
No more laughters in the house.

Yesterday,
i was still young,
i made a lot of silly mistakes.
today,
i won't let myself make the same mistakes again.

Yesterday,
i argued with my enemy.
today,
my enemy becomes my best friend.

Yesterday
seem so beautiful.
i can't 'touch' it or 'hug' it,
but i can 'feel' it.

朋友们都结婚去了

最近，电台都一直播
宇恒的‘朋友们都结婚去了’

我还记得我第一次听这首歌的时候，
是在我去上学的途中。
那时，
是早上，
我的enjin自然地还没start~
整个人处在blur blur的状态中。

但是，
当我听到从电台发出的钢琴声时，
我突然醒了。
好窝心，好舒服的旋律。
可是，窝心中，
却带有少许的遗憾。

我一直在听唱这首歌的歌手是谁，
原来是宇恒！！
这把熟悉的声音原来是宇恒的声音~
我整个人兴奋起来~
我真的等了宇恒的新作品等了好久噢。
她总于发片了~


有段歌词我还蛮喜欢的
‘还等什么？朋友们都结婚去了。
和最爱的人共度一身，
我还打算把最好的爱给你，
可惜已来不及，
遗憾的是，
我不再你的心里~’


我对这首歌的感觉可说是百感交集啦~
当看到别人一对一对，手牵手时，
心里还蛮替他们感到开心的。
但是，
心里有一块，
是酸酸的。
想到曾经也是有轰轰烈烈地爱过一个人。
曾经答应过彼此永不分开，
曾经说过只爱你一个，
曾经说过要爱你一身一世，
但，
现在已成了过去了~

不管遇到多少转折，
对的人会出现的~

大家要快乐噢~^^


这首歌的MV~
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=01CEuWRJHV8

After SPM

FINALLY,
IT's over soon.......
(it refer to SPM)
i am super duper hate SPM
it's torturing me.....
i slept for few hours in a day during my exam time~
it was so suffer~
Mr. pimples come and visit me tim~


recently,there are a lot of ppl asking me the same question when they see me......
'hey,do u hv any plan after spm....????'
but my answer is.....'i do not know wor!'


actually,i hv loaded plans....
here are they:

1. hv myself a memorable christmas~^^

2. get my car license(my mum nags me everyday)
she forces me to learn to drive as soon as possible.....


3. find a part time job
a part time job can kill my time and
importantly,i can earn money to make my dream come true~
(i will post someting abot my dream here after i make it..
for now,i wana keep it as a secret 1st~^^)


4. waiting for my result and decide whether study form 6 or A level


2011,i am coming~i am so excited~^^

A 'Stranger' in 'Me'

Every morning,when i wake up and look at my reflection on the mirror,
i talk to myself,
'hu is tat guy in the mirror?is tat me?'

i used to think that i know myself very well......
i am creative and passionate.....
obviously,these are what an architect need~
An architect needs to be vy creative to design a building
Passionate,so that,he will love his job....

However,
after my chemistry test,
suddenly,i got a thought of being a pharmacist in the future....
it was a really weird thought!
i really hate chemistry.....

the reasons that i wana b a pharmacist are:
1. i able to cure myself when i am sick(LOL)
2. i able to earn more money(LOL)
3. my mum support(LOL)


i am in a dilemma now.....
anyway,i am considering to study form 6 next year...
so i still hv another two years for me to make a biggest decision in my life that will decide hu am i goin to be in the future.....

what i need to do now is stay positive~^^