又‘衰’了~

haiz~
failed undang test 了咯~
其实，我根本就不想去考undang~
是老妈逼我的咯~
我真的很讨厌啦~
很闷咯~！！
我最怕闷的咯~~~~~
我想快点去实现我的第一个梦想咯~
2011年一定要实现的！！！
充满朝气和毅力要去实现我的梦想~^^
根本就没想过考车之类的事~

考undang那天，我没动书就考了咯~
给我对了39喔~
算啦~
都预料的啦~

等有mood那时，
再去考回咯~
再去动那本令人讨厌的undang书~

每次都要去到bangi~
远咯~
而且，要对着很多不认识的人~
更闷！！
我不明白咯
为什么有些人去听undang时，
要带名牌钱包，连笔也是名牌的咯~


值得开心的事，
我找回我的水晶项链了~~！！
我以为我弄不见了~~！！
rm200的咯~
原来我放在裤子里面~
可怜的链就在洗衣机里面打呀，转呀~
哈哈~

'噢另居*(orange juices)

最近爱上了喝*噢另居*（oranges juice)

haha~

自己每次都很懒惰blend果汁wor~

所以就买现成的~XD

其实也不是我买啦~

是妈妈咯~

每次冰箱没货了，就到超市买一大堆的

snack snack~~~

minute maid pulpy orange juices~

真的好好喝也~

不会太甜~

味道恰到好~

喝下去有幸福的感觉噢~kimuchi(舒服）~XD

rm5 一支而已也~

大家快快去试一试啦~
^^

It's time for me to put a STOP on it

i will never forget that horrible week..........
the most disastrous week in my life.........

19/10/2010

i just finished my spm trial exam.i was exhausted and i didnt score really well in my trial.
i'd been emo for a week because of your attitude.

i begged you to send me at least a message a day.
But you scolded me.you claimed that our relationship was stable and we didnt need to stick to each other too much.i......believed with what you said.


around 8pm,i received your message.i was really glad to receive your message.it had been a long time i didnt receive your message.
But i was disappointed when i read your message.

you: 'i want to discuss something with you.it's about our relationship.'

and you asked me to break up with you.
i immediately bursted into tears when i read your messages.
each words was like shattering my heart into pieces.
i called you and i said :'i dont think i can live without you.please .....please...dont contact me start from now.i need to forget you..'

i felt so so sad when i listened you said..'ok'........
it's a really short answer but it's really killing me..........

after i off my phone,i lied down on my bed and cried.......

suddenly,my mum knocked my door and said.....
'your grandpa is hovering between life and death in the hospital now.i am going to hospital now.do you want to follow me?'

on te way to hospital,
we received a phone call from the hospital and my grandpa........passed away.......

when we reached the hospital,
i saw my grandpa was lying on the bed.
his body was covered with a blanket.
my aunt couldn't stand the emotion and she cried.
i couldn't cry.
everyting happened in sudden and my mind went blank.


i sent a message to you and told you that my grandpa had passed away.
you just asked me to take care.
you didnt even be with me and lent me your shoulder.
you didnt even send me a single message after that night.


After 4 days,
my grandma ....passed away too..........
because of my grandparents' funeral,
i didnt sleep well for few days.
i had to help my parents to prepare my grandparents' funeral.
i was mentally and physically tired.

finally,
i decided to call you.
i cried so badly when i was talking to you.
you didnt even bother about me even though i cried so badly.


spm was around the corner.
i couldn't pay any attention on my study.

i went to school as usual.
i was forced to wear a grin to pretend i was ok.
so that ,my friends wouldnt worry about me.
actually, no one knew what had happened to me and how i felt in the bottom of my heart.
i bottled up all my feelings.

when i was having my spm exam,
i looked at my cellphone every night.i hoped that you would send me a message and
asked me to work harder.
however,
again,
my expectation turned to disappointment.


Finally,
i realized that i shouldn't continue to be like that.
i had to push myself!!!!spm should be my everything and not you.
if i still living in the past,it would make me more suffer.
it was a really disastrous week to me and i passed through it by myself.
i never knew that i could make it and i was so proud with myself.


i hated you!
i hated you for broken our promise.
i hated you for didn't lend me your shoulder when i needed you so much.
i hated you for asking me to break up with you.
i hated you for didnt care about me when my grandparents passed away.
i hated you for didnt encourage me to work harder during my exam.
i hated you for being so selfish.


But.........
for now......
i no longer hate you or love you.
to me,
you are a stranger.
a stranger that i used to love so much.
it's time for me to put a stop on it.

i really enjoy my life now.
obviously,
i do not need you in my life now.

i am back........
^^

Before and after christmas~~

24/12/2010

it's christmas eve~

i went to Gigi's fren house to celebrate the christmas~

1st,

caroling~

then,

met chui teng and her frens from the church...

i saw a small present on the floor and i didnt know whose present was it....

so i picked it up and asked other ppl hu were around me whether tis present was belong to them or not.....but they asked me to keep it....

LOL
automatically,it bcam my 2nd christmas present~i din mean to be greedy....

jz tat tey kept forcing me to keep it lor~haha

after tat,

we went to Uncle JB's house which was located at bukit jalil by benjamin's car...

it was my 1st time met uncle JB.

He and his family members're so nice~

His wife even presented me a towel as a christmas present.

i felt so warm when his wife handed me the towel and said 'merry christmas' with a broad grin~

uncle JB 's house is so huge~

it's a 3 storey bungalow......

thr's a small balcony at the 3rd floor...

at thr,

i talked wit gigi abot my future and my problems ~

christmas eve wasnt as perfect as i thought
anyway,it's still a memorable christmas eve too~^^

25/12/2010(family day)

it's christmas~^^

my family(except my father),my uncle and his family,my neighbours went to seputeh to hv a superb dinner together.....

at seputeh,thr's a famous restaurant called 'xiao xiao'

thr's whr we had our dinner......

tey ordered claypot crab fried rice,curry prawn,fried chicken..........bla bla........

our table was full with the dishes..........

25/12/2010

we went to 'bao xian bak kut teh' at puchong~

thr r branches at mid valley and pavilion too~

mayb i dun really like to eat bak kut teh~

so i din really enjoy te food~

at nite,

we went to sunway pyramid........^^

christmas tree @mid valley

2010 christmas comes to the end.....

and new year is coming~

^^

Yesterday

Yesterday,
i fell down,
i cried.
Today,
i fall down,
i din cry and i stand up alone.

Yesterday,
i laughed and talked with my grandpa and grandma.
today,
they pass away.
No more laughters in the house.

Yesterday,
i was still young,
i made a lot of silly mistakes.
today,
i won't let myself make the same mistakes again.

Yesterday,
i argued with my enemy.
today,
my enemy becomes my best friend.

Yesterday
seem so beautiful.
i can't 'touch' it or 'hug' it,
but i can 'feel' it.

朋友们都结婚去了

最近，电台都一直播
宇恒的‘朋友们都结婚去了’

我还记得我第一次听这首歌的时候，
是在我去上学的途中。
那时，
是早上，
我的enjin自然地还没start~
整个人处在blur blur的状态中。

但是，
当我听到从电台发出的钢琴声时，
我突然醒了。
好窝心，好舒服的旋律。
可是，窝心中，
却带有少许的遗憾。

我一直在听唱这首歌的歌手是谁，
原来是宇恒！！
这把熟悉的声音原来是宇恒的声音~
我整个人兴奋起来~
我真的等了宇恒的新作品等了好久噢。
她总于发片了~


有段歌词我还蛮喜欢的
‘还等什么？朋友们都结婚去了。
和最爱的人共度一身，
我还打算把最好的爱给你，
可惜已来不及，
遗憾的是，
我不再你的心里~’


我对这首歌的感觉可说是百感交集啦~
当看到别人一对一对，手牵手时，
心里还蛮替他们感到开心的。
但是，
心里有一块，
是酸酸的。
想到曾经也是有轰轰烈烈地爱过一个人。
曾经答应过彼此永不分开，
曾经说过只爱你一个，
曾经说过要爱你一身一世，
但，
现在已成了过去了~

不管遇到多少转折，
对的人会出现的~

大家要快乐噢~^^


这首歌的MV~
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=01CEuWRJHV8

After SPM

FINALLY,
IT's over soon.......
(it refer to SPM)
i am super duper hate SPM
it's torturing me.....
i slept for few hours in a day during my exam time~
it was so suffer~
Mr. pimples come and visit me tim~


recently,there are a lot of ppl asking me the same question when they see me......
'hey,do u hv any plan after spm....????'
but my answer is.....'i do not know wor!'


actually,i hv loaded plans....
here are they:

1. hv myself a memorable christmas~^^

2. get my car license(my mum nags me everyday)
she forces me to learn to drive as soon as possible.....


3. find a part time job
a part time job can kill my time and
importantly,i can earn money to make my dream come true~
(i will post someting abot my dream here after i make it..
for now,i wana keep it as a secret 1st~^^)


4. waiting for my result and decide whether study form 6 or A level


2011,i am coming~i am so excited~^^

A 'Stranger' in 'Me'

Every morning,when i wake up and look at my reflection on the mirror,
i talk to myself,
'hu is tat guy in the mirror?is tat me?'

i used to think that i know myself very well......
i am creative and passionate.....
obviously,these are what an architect need~
An architect needs to be vy creative to design a building
Passionate,so that,he will love his job....

However,
after my chemistry test,
suddenly,i got a thought of being a pharmacist in the future....
it was a really weird thought!
i really hate chemistry.....

the reasons that i wana b a pharmacist are:
1. i able to cure myself when i am sick(LOL)
2. i able to earn more money(LOL)
3. my mum support(LOL)


i am in a dilemma now.....
anyway,i am considering to study form 6 next year...
so i still hv another two years for me to make a biggest decision in my life that will decide hu am i goin to be in the future.....

what i need to do now is stay positive~^^

Few years ago........

yesterday,
when i was packing my refrence books,
i found out tat thr's a score was squeezed in between my physic and chem refrence books....
so i pull te score out!


the title of te score's 'now and forever' by richard marx....
i learned to play tis song few years ago....
it probably 4 or 5 years ago....
then i tried to get my guitar and playing around wit it......

i duno why,
i got a bit touched when i was playing tis song~
tis song is storied abot a man hu promised a gal to b her man forever...
tat's y te title of te song's call 'now and forever'
te last phrase of tis song is 'now and forever,i will be ur man..'


mayb i was too young when i learned tis song
so i din really understand wat tis song's abot.....
but now after so many years,
i tink i get te message tat tis song wanted to convey......

^^

here's te song..enjoy...^^

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=glJmzxNmtn8&ob=av2n

杨桃.....公公......

杨桃在我的童年回忆中留下了映像。我记得小时候，每当我去公公家时，公公就会把整颗杨桃切得好好的，端在桌子上，让我们小的吃。现在回想起来，心依然是温热的。把杨桃占上少许的盐，杨桃的味道就被提升了~
那时候的我，真的很喜欢吃杨桃。公公有块地是用来种杨桃的，所以公公的杨桃得来不易。
但是，不懂何时开始，每当我去公公家时，再也吃不到杨桃了，因为公公把杨桃地给卖了。我已经不记得我有多久没吃杨桃了。直到那天，我陪妈妈到超市时，无意中看到杨桃，才想起公公的。


公公在上个星期五入院了。当时我在外头，妈妈在电话中把公公说的好像很严重似的。
结果，我花了rm15搭的士从外头回来。
到半夜4时，医生说公公终于过了危险期了。可以转入普通病房了。

第二天，我与妈妈再探望公公时，
公公好多了，还把脚翘起来呢~
一看到我们，就说很饿，要吃东西~
这果然就是张家的习俗，永远与吃脱不了关系的~
哈哈~
妈妈也为了公公，身体变得很脆弱。而且，上个星期二，得了她的报告，确实患上了goitre。
我真的好担心妈妈哦。或许我是华人，所以，我不太擅长把对别人的关心从我的肢体语言上显示出来。



其实，这个秋天，真的是多事之秋。
外公去世了，外婆每天只能靠做家务来消磨时间。
公公入院了，婆婆患上了老人痴呆症，现在还有呼吸困难，要靠氧气桶为生~

说真的，当我老了，会不会很像我的公公婆婆那样的？
而且，我老了，会不会有人照顾我呢？
又有没有人想起我呢？

A jubilant morning and a scary night.......

1. Morning

it's a bday party...ling and ting's bday..we decided to celebrate it at green box..
i really enjoyed myself hanging out wit frens..we sang a lot of songs and SHOUTED as loud as we could!!
we bought a cake and planned to gv ling and ting a suprise.however,when fui yee entered the room wit te cake,most of them were at te toilet!it was quite funny actually...we ended our morning wit te 'sorry sorry' dance....haha

2. Afternoon

bcoz of sushi king bonanza promotion,we purposely took a cab to go to the mines from cheras selatan jusco,bcoz cheras selatan jusco dun hv sushi king outlet.it's quite funny and memorable.......7 ppl trapped in te same taxi....can you imagine it?

3. Sushi king

here's whr te nightmare started.....
i did not know tat te sushi king promotion's only for certain sushi only....
i tot every plate of sushi's at rm 2!
when i payed te bill,
i was like...OMG!!!!
i got a shock when i looked at te figures...it was rm 131!!!
we only got rm 86!
luckily qing ying payed for te rest.....
and i still own him rm 30 .....
bcoz i ate 10 plates of sushi and 8 plates of sushi out of 10 plates were at normal price........

After tat,we went to old town and chat!!!haha....
te whole cafe was filled wit our sound!!

then tey went home and i felt lik wan to stay at thr for a while...
then,i decided to watch a movie ALONE!te mines cinema's suck!

with te vy last rm 13 in my wallet,i used rm 10 to buy te movie ticket.
i watched 'jangan pandang belakang congkak 2'.......
it was a malay movie!!initially,i tot it was a horror movie!!but i was wrong,it was a comedy!
i tried to make myself laugh but i failed...
bcoz i was watching it alone!i felt so lonely..

te loneliness tat i felt had engulfed my mind.....
i couldnt focus on wat watched....

after i watched te movie for less than an hour
,i decided to leave te threatre and went to te bookstore to kill my time!



4. Bookstore

i hide myself at te corner of te bookstore and cried.....
it only left rm 3 in my wallet.....
it's not enuf for me to take a cab to return home....
i called my mum and she din answer it (she's bc)
i was so insecure and afraid...
i cried silently and scolded myself........."WTF,stupid!y i used rm 10 to buy a lame malay movie ticket?if i din use it,i could take a cab and returned to my home now'


i went to mc donald and bought myself an ice cream....(left rm 2 after i bought te ice cream)
te ice cream really vacuumed out te misery from my body....

i looked at te ppl hu were bsid me and
i found out tat i was te only 1 hu was alone...every1 came wit their frens or family...

then i tried my luck and called my mum again!
fortunately,she picked my call......'oh god!finally'......
i was so touch tat my mum willing to fetch me....
bcoz we had an really bad argument last night....



i learnt a lesson 2day....
i promise myself i will not watch movie alone......TT